Michael Yetter

As a teen I remember the problems and how hard life was. All these people telling me what to do and when to do it. My mother telling me to clean my room and mow the lawn, tons of teachers giving me assignment after assignment, and my boss directing my every action at work. People would tell me “just wait till you grow up, then it gets hard.” The feelings of frustration when I would hear that stemmed from my thinking that I did everything that an adult did, I had a job, went to school, and tried to go above and beyond in most areas of my life. In the past year or so I have started to realize just how right they were.
Before I had everyone telling me what to do and where to be, now where I am and what I do is up to me. I can stay in bed all day and sleep, or just read. I don’t have to do a thing, I have the freedom that I remember wishing for when I had to wake up in the morning for school and then go to work after. I had to go out and mow the lawn and didn’t get a day off from everything, I would just imagine not having to do anything at all. Now I have that luxury. The luxury to experience what those old folks meant when they said life gets harder. I have no reason to get up in the morning unless I have to work and even that I could just skip if I felt like it. Yeah, I might get fired but hey, I’ll just find another job when I need money. When people ask me to do something I can easy say no and shuck the responsibility off to someone else and there is really not much that anyone can do about it.
You wake up in the morning and feel like doing absolutely nothing and really don’t have to, but still get up and eat breakfast and then clean up after yourself because if you don’t no one else will. You look at the list of things that need to be done, a list that you wrote and start chipping away at it despite not wanting to. When the feeling of being a failure starts to overwhelm, you still get up and make your bed. Respect for houses with nice yards is learned because you know the owner has to work a full time job or two to even own a house and then on the weekends goes out and cares for his or her yard. You now have the luxury of freedom that you dreamed about as a teen but now that you’re in possession you realize it is a burden that others carried for all those years. I have a feeling that life only gets harder the older you get and with that comes my new found respect for anyone that has managed to keep living and a deeper one to those who live the good life. Oh did I mention the smirk that crosses my face when I hear younger people complain about their life.

Every morning that I wake up I have this list of things to do. My list has three different categories; Someone asked me to do this, Should be completed but no one knows it, and Needs to be done to stay on top of life. December I really battled the lists and lost but 2012 shall be different! The idea of planning out every hour of my day is on a list but I have to get to it. I just had a brilliant idea! NEW YEARS RESOLUTION! TIME MANAGEMENT!!! Wow I accomplished something in writing a blog, hmm might have to do this more often now. =D Thank you people!

"I wish I could say I miss you, but that would be less that accurate. I miss who you were before you became who you are. I’m just glad you shut me out before you made the change because being unable to stop it would have broke me. But I can’t miss you for who you are now, I don’t even know who that is. I just miss you. I miss us. I miss the ridiculousness that made us who we were together. I miss the inside jokes that no one else understood. Growing up does not always mean growing better, Especially not for you. I will not tell you how much I miss you or even that I do at all. If you felt the saw way you would have said so long ago but you didn’t I called out to you over and over but you never glanced back so this sis goodbye. You’re free from me; I’m free from you, from the memories that haunt me, and the shackles on my heart that bound me to you. I miss you but I’m saying goodbye. Go be free." -Katie Kaley

Working with kids adds new meaning to the word love! Some of the kids I work with are so cool and funny and interesting and fascinating that I could chill with them all day long! LOVE MY JOB!

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, SWIM

I must say that I really love my dear sister. In all that we have gone through she has been there. We look out for each other and hold each other up, it was her holding me up more often than not but... It has always been Rachael, Airica and I. She is getting married and will be moving to R-cansis. I don't know what I'm going to do but I simply shall be a mess. I thank God so very much for the times that we have had together and I hope that one day he will see it fit to bring ryan and her up here. Just thought I would put in a little blurb about this. I also kinda plan on making this blog less formal. I hope that this will be a good thing but we shall see. haha God bless you. LOVE YOU RACHAEL JOANNE YETTER soon to be O'NEIL.

I have been going through a season of self discovery. I think the reason for this season is that I have been standing up for myself. No longer can I count on others to define me. I must have my own relationship with God, one that is unconditional. No matter who falls around me I must stand for me and for my God. I believe that God has ordained this time of lonesomeness. I cannot rely on others to hold me up. Through this period I have also discovered some of the things that matter to me in my relationships with others. One of the most important things is trust.

Trust is something that you don't really notice or think about until it's gone. When I was younger I was given the analogy of a bucket and drips of water. The water is trust, it slowly fills up the bucket. When trust is broken it's the same as dumping out that bucket, to refill it it takes the slow drip of the water.

I started writing this a few months ago and never finished it, I'm here to finish it. The most valuable thing in you're relationship in God (from my view point, correct me if I'm wrong) is trust. Trust is a "all encompassing" word, when I say trusting God I mean Knowing that you're in God's hands and everything that happens it is all in his will and no matter what happens he will be there for, with, in you.

No matter if you want it or not, God will be there so you might as well believe and know and save your poor heart the worry. In all things God is there. In that you can trust God. You can trust that his will will happen, be it with or with out you. You might as well just give up and trust Haha.